Muhasabah cinta

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم والصلاة والسلام على رسول الله


ingat tak masa mula kita kenal?

tangan kita bersalaman. mulut mengucup ke pipi, bertanya khabar.

nama saling ditanya dan senyuman terukir mesra.

syukur dengan nikmat ukhwah yang Allah kurniakan. rasa kasih dan sayang yang tercipta, dalam  duduk-duduk kita yang tidak bersahaja. duduk-duduk yang bukan membuang masa. malah mengisi hati, membuang dosa dan… percayakah kalau akak kata…

untuk kita bermuhasabah cinta.. ?

mungkin adik tak perasan…

tapi khabar diri yang akak tanya bukan semata-mata jasadmu yang terlihat mata tapi sebenarnya hatimu yang satu. dan apa yang lahir darinya…

apa khabarkah dia?

sihatkah? segarkah? penuhkah?

dan apa khabar cinta dan rindumu?

adakah untukNya? untuk syurgaNya?

masih mampukah hatimu menuju itu?


acap kali akak buntu… mencari jawapanmu.


mari kita bermuhasabah lagi… sampai adik ketemu.

dengan izinNya yang satu

akak takkan jemu.



jangan putus asa



setiap kita dijadikan unik

cara, suka, tawa, halwa – beza

hati, cinta – tetap sama

segala saling melengkapi

bahagia itu pasti

mungkin juga berapi.


indahnya hidup pada persamaan


kukuhnya kehidupan pada perbezaan.



study room

11:45 am

he likes half boiled eggs with salt and pepper while i have mine with pepper and soy sauce,

i think it tastes better~

he has his with toasted bread, mine with plain bread instead.



to make half boiled eggs with boiling water, use a small size pot, larger than the amount of eggs, not just enough to fit like a soup mug or small bowl (unless you’re making just two half-boiled eggs) or else it’ll need a bit more time to be cooked rather than a bigger one.

pour boiling water (just boiled bubbly water) to cover it all up for about 5 minutes then drain it away without rinsing and add again boiling water (must reboil the previous boiled water to ensure the hotness) for another 3 minutes.

rinse with cold water.

walla~ =) mummy’s tips to make a healthy breakfast. thank you ma..

maybe it’ll not turn out the way you like it at first, but practice makes perfect! =)

the departure

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم والصلاة والسلام على رسول الله

i came across Dr Harlina Halizah Siraj’s beautiful words regarding the departure of Dr Lo’ Lo’, one of the famous Muslimah figure in Malaysia.. i’m not a keen reader of politics but yet i can’t deny that the news of her death did leave quite a mark inside.

it made me think, what have i done or rather what will i leave behind if one day Allah took my soul away. Dr Lo’ Lo’ had served her community, was brave enough to voice what is right, a sound Muslimah who serves as a role model to the people around her. and i end up thinking, will i be able to live up my life fighting in His cause? …… T_T

here i paste the words of Dr Harlina.. which made me tear a little.

Al-Fatihah for my dearest sister YB Dr Lo’ Lo’ Ghazali….

Last night at 10.38pm, 17 July 2011 – I was informed of the departure of a very beloved and dear sister, Dr. K.Lo’ Lo’ Ghazali.

I would like to extend my deepest condolences to her family members and PAS for the loss. In fact, Malaysia has lost one of the few `serikandi’ (outstanding women) today!

An exceptionally special and unique person, she had lived a very fulfilled life that made her name, which means `pearl’ in Arabic, glows forever in the hearts of everyone who have known her personally as well as those who have ever heard of her.

A dedicated servant of Allah, an ardent follower of Prophet Muhammad SAW, a special daughter and sister to her family, a loving wife to Prof Dr Aminuddin for more than 30 years, a wonderful mother to her children & grandchildren, a caring medical doctor whose healing hands had touched the lives of many, a committed politician who served her constituency with guts & determination, a very good & loyal friend, an outstanding Muslimah role model – those are merely a small fraction of what this pleasant woman had always been and will always be.

K.Lo’ Lo’, I am surely going to miss your beautiful smiles, sweet voice and soaring spirit. Yet I know, you will be looked after by Allah SWT now, who had been your only destination all these while.

K.Lo’ Lo’, I recalled how worried you were over the `little’ deeds that you could only manage to do – when I visited you three weeks ago. And I will always remember hugging you then, and whispered these words to your ear : ` Of course, it’s quite natural to feel that what you’ve done are not enough. But let me be your witness in front of Allah on the Day of Judgement, that you have done so much for so many people!’

Good bye my dear sister, for you deserve this ultimate rest and may you harvest all the fruits of your deeds. Jazakallah for everything that you have done. You had left behind a legacy for us to emulate and a benchmark quite challenging to match.

We are just waiting our turns to follow you – sooner or later.

I pray to Allah SWT to grant you with His Jannatul Firdaus.

I pray to Allah SWT to provide me strength to follow your footsteps in serving the ummah.

I pray to Allah SWT to bestow me with courage and determination which had been your trademark all thse while.

Till we see you again, in Jannah InsyaAllah – as neighbours, I hope and I pray….Amin

اللهم يرحمها ويصبر اهلها


أَفَلاَ يَتَدَبَّرُونَ الْقُرْءَانَ؟

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم والصلاة والسلام على رسول الله

i wonder, how come a person who reads the Quran is still not able to feel the fear and to be motivated in doing good?

how many ayaats are there explaining and reminding of what is going to happen. the ‘prognosis’ of being a kafir or for being negligent and not abiding to Allah’s rules.

and followed by ayaats of Allah’s rewards for the righteous and the people of taqwa..

over and over again.. the ayaats are repeated. sometimes, the exact phrase is repeated to remind.

the problem or the main issue is : we don’t care to read and to contemplate! that’s why…

we might be reading.. but we don’t stop to ‘tadabbur’. what a very nice word.. that i can’t find an english word to describe- maybe ‘ponder’ is the closest one i can get.

i’d like to share this beautiful ayat from surah Muhammad verse 24;

أَفَلاَ يَتَدَبَّرُونَ الْقُرْءَانَ أَمْ عَلَى قُلُوبٍ أَقْفَالُهَآ

Will they not, then, ponder over this Qur’an? – or are there locks upon their hearts?

indeed, there are locks upon the hearts that made them not able to ‘see’, firmly closing them so that none of the meanings can reach their hearts..

how sad can that be.

even sadder if some of us choose to leave the Quran, let alone to read it :(

have you ever felt at times when you feel there’s something missing? even though you pray and still read the Quran? well, i do too… but when i force myself to sit down, ponder upon the verses of Quran that i’m reading.. slowly the heavy knots that had been burdening my mind and soul, becomes loose and i feel free again-with a clear mind and a crying heart.

it’s just a matter of sitting down and making Zikrullah. it makes wonders.. :) after all the Quran is, like a ‘love letter’ sent by the Lord Himself specially for us, His beloved servants.. to fill our hearts. how weary can we be?

search for the key.

Ya Ramadan

Ya Ramadan by Noor Syed

In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind

A blessed month is casting its shadow upon us
A night of this month is better than a thousand months
Bear with patience for the sake of Ar-Rahman
It’s a continuous training to strengthen our Imaan.

Glory be to Allah who sent Ramadan as a mercy to mankind
Its a purification of our soul, our heart, and our mind
With the most sincere devotion and love we fast
To be cleansed and free from sins of the past

Glorified is He, who choseth this holy month,
To test our sabr and fill our hearts with warmth
Of his Divine Light, His blessings shall glow,
The Seer of the unseen, all He does know

Ya Allah! For thee, let my breath be more pleasant than musk
Ya Allah! For thee, let me be thankful when day turns to dusk
My thoughts and heart are purified, my eyes truly see’
This blessed month, the month of spiritual rhapsody!

Ya Allah! For thee, my life I shall live!
Ya Allah! For thee, my soul I shall give!
In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind,
Praise be to Allah, who sent Ramadan as a gift to mankind

Tetamu itu

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Mari kita fikirkan sejenak,

bagaimanakah lagak seseorang yang bakal menerima tetamu?

cuba kita bayangkan kalau kawan sekelas atau juniors kata nak datang ziarah… kelam-kabut juga dibuatnya. lagi-lagi kalau sarah.. :) debarnya lebih~

sebab apa? sebab semestinya kita nak pastikan rumah kita tersedia rapi.. kalau ada yang bersepah, segera dirapikan.. kalau ada yang tak bersapu, disapu licin siap bermop lagi kalau boleh.. kalau sempat sediakan makan, cepat-cepat dibuat.. baju rumah yang kita pakai pun ditukar kepada baju yang lebih sesuai, cantik dan menutup aurat. bukankah begitu??

segala persediaan yang kita buat tadi tu, untuk menerima kedatangan tetamu tersebut, agar dia lebih selesa dan gembira bertandang. kita sebagai tuan rumah pun berasa puas hati dan gembira menerima kunjungan tersebut. tetamu kan membawa rahmat.


begitu juga dengan bulan yang bakal tiba…

bulan yang selalu orang gambarkan sebagai tetamu yang agung.

kadang-kadang sebagai madrasah.

walau apa pun.. kita perlu sedar yang kedatangan bulan yang dianggap tetamu ini, menuntut kita untuk membuat persediaan.

Persediaan fizikal, mental dan spiritual.

mari kita memperbanyakkan solat sunat, bacaan Al-Quran dan bertaubat..

kalau masih ada dalam mutabaah harian yang masih lompong dan belum dimantapkan, kita mantapkan sama-sama.

kalau masih ada karat-karat jahiliyah yang masih melekat, kita cuba kikiskan.

kalau ada maksiat yang kita lazimkan, segera muhasabah dan cuba sedaya-upaya untuk tinggalkan dan doa banyak-banyak supaya Allah bantu kita untuk meninggalkannya.

supaya kelak kita mampu melangkah ke bulan baru dengan langkah yang kemas dan diri yang sedia dilatih dan ditarbiyyah oleh bulan yang penuh keberkatan ini.

ya Allah.. terimalah usaha kecil kami untuk mendekatkan diri lagi kepadaMu.


  1.  jom kita buat list doa atau hajat yang kita nak doa sepanjang bulan ramadhan..
  2. tak lupa juga list perkara yang kita nak capai sepanjang bulan Ramadhan nanti..
kalau ada yang nak menambah tips atau peringatan, bolehlah kongsi.. :)

!!حيا تقرب الى الله